Tuesday, May 24, 2016

7 Years Later

          Hi friends, I know it’s been too long since I’ve posted.  In honor of my 7th year anniversary of living life with Dysautonomia, I’d like to share pieces of my story along with some hope and encouragement today.  As many of you know, June 2, 2009 is the day God chose to change my life by having me live with something called Dysautonomia.  You’ve heard the story…I was a healthy teen and woke up one morning to a life forever changed.  It wasn’t easy. It wasn’t expected, but it was what God had planned for my life.  My whole world and life took such a turn that day that I have no idea where I’d be if Dysautonomia hadn’t been part of God’s story for my life.  My world was suddenly filled with doctor visits, medical tests, hospital stays, and lots of uncertainty.  There were days I remember going to sleep and really being unsure if I’d wake up on Earth or in Heaven.  It was scary.  There were dreams that might not happen and the “normal” life was over. 

I’ve been in the trenches of uncertainty, unanswered questions, and unmet dreams. I’ve seen the sun go down and the stars come up before the sun shown again.  I know it’s hard.  I know it takes faith. I know, dear soul.  I know that there are days when hope is hard to find.  I know that there are tears no one will ever see.  I know that there are plans broken you dreamed of.  I also know that there is peace that comforts every weary soul. I know that there is joy that comes from knowing you are loved. I know that there is a God who orchestrates all things for our good.  I’ve seen it. 
Seven years after life changing, I’ve been through a lot, and I’m able to live my “normal” life again.  God so tremendously blessed me by placing my Dysautonomia into “almost remission” about 4 years ago.   I still remember the 3 years of the hardest nights.  The peace after unpleasant news from a doctor, the comfort of knowing He was walking right beside me. It all became so real during the darkest times of the journey, but it’s real in everyday life. It’s fun to see how God molded each situation through my journey to fit His plan and how awesome His plan worked out.  You see, my plan would have never included being “Hospital home bound” my final three years of high school or going to a local university.  Wow how God works.  I had one of the greatest college experiences, made lifelong friends, and God allowed me to show off His grace this final semester.  I’m so happy that His plan included me becoming a teacher! Life will forever be “different” because of Dysautonomia.  I may not be able to do everything a completely “healthy” person could do, but oh the healing He has brought.  I am SO grateful. 
He’s still writing my story, and each event is just part of His plan.  He’s writing yours too, friend.  Although you may not be struggling with a physical illness, you may have emotional burdens, family difficulties, or some other trial in your life at this time.  Let Him turn the pages of the book and each chapter.  You never know what He has planned for you.  Hang tight because the sun is shining somewhere, and it’s on its way back around.  You may not understand God’s plan, but I can tell you from experience, He’s good.  He’s got it, and He’s never going to leave you.  Here’s to life 7 years after a chronic diagnosis and to the hope that we serve a God who is greater than any circumstance! I am thankful, and He is good. 

Isaiah 41:13- "For I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee."
Romans 8:28- "And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to His purpose."

Friday, March 18, 2016

No Matter the Cost

Hello friends,

I can't even believe we are halfway through March.  I definitely feel like this year just started.  I'm reminded each day to enjoy every moment because time is passing so quickly.  It's so funny to think about our childhood dreams.  I'm not sure if you were one of those kids who had your entire life planned out with all sorts of plans and dreams, but I definitely was.  Let's just say God's plans rarely match up exactly with what we thought life would look like.  His plans are always so much better even if it doesn't feel like they are in the moment.  I know I've posted so many posts on waiting on God and enjoying the journey because I love looking ahead at life.  I often rush to get to the next stage and I'm constantly being reminded to slow down and enjoy today! These years in college sure do seem short now that they are coming to a close even though I've worked the hardest ever to get to this point. I want to remind you all today that God does make our paths straight.  Throughout my journey in college, God changed my goals a couple of times.  He redirected me to schools I thought I would never be interested in teaching at. One thing I've seen in education is how many hurting souls are around us.  There are so many hurting children in this world; it's heart-breaking.  I want to spread the love of Jesus and love these children more than they've ever been loved before.  I want to show them what it feels like to be loved, cared for and accepted.  I'll be job hunting for the next few months and praying God leads me to the right school and right grade!  

I want to encourage you all that no matter where God has you right now, He will make His path straight for you.  When it's His timing, He will work out whatever He has in store for your life.  Have you been doubting His perfect plan trying to take matters into your own hands? It has to make God sad when we forget to trust Him and we run off trying to fix everything ourselves.  I want to trust God so much that no circumstance makes me anxious even if He changes my plans.  I've been thinking about Daniel.  He trusted God no matter what it may cost.  He had so much faith in God things were going to be ok, but he didn't even get anxious if things weren't going to be ok.  Daniel knew God would work everything out, and he didn't doubt God at all.  In Daniel 3, King Nebuchadnezzar commanded Daniel, Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego to bow down to the golden image.  Daniel, along with his three friends, stood their ground and didn't allow fear to control them.  I love verse 18 where Daniel tells the king that even if God chooses not to keep them from getting burned in the fire, they still will not bow down.  That is faith in action, my friends.  Daniel knew God was in control and His plan was perfect.  God always knows what is best for us, and He will take care of us.  So no matter what, keep trusting His plan and dare to be a Daniel!  

Psalm 27:14- "Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and He shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord."

Daniel 3:18- "But if not, be it known unto thee, O king, that we will not serve thy gods, nor worship the golden image which thou hast set up."

Thursday, February 4, 2016

He's Good!

Hi friends,

I just have to share with you that our God is so good! He has amazed me in ways I never dreamed the past few weeks.  He can bring things to fruition that we never dreamed or imagined.  Recently, I was nominated and selected to receive a very prestigious award that I had no idea about.  I am so blessed to also share that the same day I received news of the award, I was notified I passed my certification test! Talk about a whirlwind of events and overwhelming feeling of grace! I felt like I was living in a dream...it was a very joyful day! I tell you all this so I can express to you how great our God is.  As I've said in previous blog posts, when I began college, we were not sure I would be able to finish because of how sick I was with Dysautonomia.  My freshmen year of college, I really began to live a more normal life with symptoms becoming less and less frequent. Over the course of the four years, God has allowed me to live in almost remission! I can now praise Him and cannot believe how far He has brought me.  I am amazed by a loving Father. 
Please don't ever forget what God can do for you.  He is the God of the impossible, and I'm so thankful I can tell you that from experience.  Our God works in ways that we would never be able to imagine.  He's good.  I've been studying through my favorite book of the Bible lately, Psalm.  I write characteristics of God that I find in each chapter.  One I find in many chapters is that He is good.  He's good.  He's worthy; He's faithful.  I love learning about who God is although I know I will never be able to truly comprehend all that He is.  Keep trusting the One who is faithful, loving, good, true, holy, just, and an innumerable amount of other wonderful things to His children.  No matter what uncertainties you're facing today, God's got a plan.  No matter how scary or hard what you are going through looks, He's in control.  No matter how many sleepless nights you've spent thinking, He's got it all in His hands.  He has you, my friend, in His hands.  Every dream, every day, every plan.  He's able to work in ways you would never understand, so stop trying to figure God out! You never will! He's far greater than our mind could ever process. Just trust Him and get to know Him the very best you can.  Spend time in His word and as you study His word, note His characteristics. It will draw you closer to the heart of your Father, and help you understand that He's good all of the time! I've recently been reminded that God calls us to waters deep so no matter what waters you are facing, He is good, and He wants you to trust Him. 

Ephesians 3:20- "Now unto Him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us"

Romans 8:38-39-"For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height, nor depth, not any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."